My Brain Hurts

I am having one of those day where my brain won't shut up! I worked all night and came home wanting to have a nice little nap and instead I ended up spending an hour on my computer writing. For those that know me, I unfortunately did not spend any of that time on my rewrite. I am trying to get it done, but the ideas I have for the second book of my series won't leave me alone and are demanding all of my attention. Who am I to deny the voices in my head!

So I am spending time with Emily and Katie and I am reaching a point where I am really really starting to miss Lucas. How weird is it that I am missing a character I created and which I know will be coming back.... eventually. I am sure other writers have similar problems I do. You create a group of characters that invade your brain, hang some drapes and declare that your mind is now theirs and so they can do with it whatever they choose. Before I began writing Eternal - Beginnings, I had a fairly normal brain that came with its own soundtrack. Now, I get to enjoy an inner monologue that is no longer in my own voice and excludes me completely.

I am starting to wonder about my personal sanity....

I had hoped that when I finished the first book that Emily and Katie and Lucas and the rest of my imaginary friends would leave me alone for a bit and let me get some independent thinking done, but sadly I have been proven wrong. I am instead plagued with nagging doubts about what I have put my heroine through and what is still to come. I have actually lost a few days of sleep thinking about the impending crisis that I am throwing at Emily's feet. I would really like to set them aside for at least a day or two, but my brain is no longer my own and it seems I am no longer in control.

Maybe I should just give in to the inevitable and let them remain in control. Since they seem to be able to handle crisis better than I do, it might not be such a bad idea. But I miss my soundtrack. I miss being able to get really annoying songs stuck in my head till I can no longer stand it and end up singing it to coworkers who seem to love to glare at me. I can no longer annoy my children as well as I used to (immunity and all that crap) so they are the only group I really have left.

So I am going to continue fighting for control of my thoughts. Maybe once I finish book #2 I will get some control back. Yeah..... right. Considering that the end of #2 will only be the half way point for Emily's journey, I think it is safe to say that I will be a outside observer to my brain for quite some time....

Have a wonderful Hump Day! Don't let the voices in your head talk you into anything too stupid and I shall see you on the flip side!
Dar